Wednesday, November 30, 2011

snejinka

The snow is already falling,
It took so long to come but in my mind it rushed,
In my mind it was just yesterday that I was under my Turkish sun,
My bronze skin and salty air,
Just yesterday it was pricking so much to leave.
I would give anything for that feeling,
But it's already snowing,
Seasons change too fast,
I hope I can get through this winter with something to look forward to.

Monday, November 28, 2011

August 2011...

I’m not an outgoing person either, it’s hard for me to find people who I think are interesting or people who understand me. Also I have a hard time explaining my feelings to others so I prefer to avoid feeling anything at all. I don’t understand my own feelings, and that is why I felt so hesitant. I am afraid of what I might feel when I am on a plane for three hours. I don’t like Canada because I haven’t been truly happy since I left Russia 8 years ago. But every time I go overseas, I find happiness. I hope you understand that I wanted to stay with you longer but unfortunately the happier I am here in Turkey, the sadder I will be when I go back to Canada. That is my problem and I am sorry. This is why I don’t let myself get too happy, because I am afraid of how I will feel when it’s over. 

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

It's only been three months yet it feels like years. 
Time flies, making me fear the thought that my life may seem too short if I spend it in love.
But this is how I intend to.
It's good and getting better.
Knock knock knock.

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